2022/12/2
Woke up at 11 am. Had plans for tonight but they were cancelled, unfortunately due to poor communication which made me feel weird, like they didn't want to spend time with me. Went thrifting after that situation, also went to the gym which was a weird experience, since there was so many people there and it felt like everyone was staring at me. Came home to find that other friends made plans on the day I leave to visit family in another city - which isn't their fault but didn't help the feelings from earlier in the day. Alienating for sure. The holidays have been upsetting this year, been feeling tons of emotions. I worry that I have become more annoying with others - its been a little lonely this year and I just want to talk but I don't know how to communicate without being hyper. Waiting to move out in a couple of months for university, hopefully being on my own will sort these things through.